I made goals in my head before I left home to come to Israel about what I wanted to get out of this trip, but it’s very different when you are actually in the experience. Now that I have gotten “in the flow” of how things are done here (somewhat, it’s only been a couple of days). My goals have not really changed, it’s just more of a reality than a want from myself in the future, I’m here now and I have to commit. Its real, which is really something that I appreciate because I can enjoy it, challenge is hard, but it is almost always interesting. One of my fears that I didn’t write about is getting too distracted with all of my concerns and worries that I won’t be able to get done with what needed to get done, mostly just schoolwork. I was worried that for example, being homesick would get into the way of what I wanted to get out of this experience. My goal, like I said in my first blog post: “I have always wanted to be someone people can look up to and take a leadership role in different things. Here I have an awesome opportunity to learn how to do just that, I know how much I can and will get out of this program.” This program will do exactly that, how amazing is that, I will not let worries get in the way. This program will also teach me more than I’ve ever known about my ancestors history, which I have always wanted to learn about but never had the proper opportunity, now it is here, why would anyone take that for granted. My biggest fear though is that I am scared to arrive at my home and be lonely. My personality requires a certain “fuel”, that “fuel” is people, this trip is and will be giving me more than I am used to and I’m not sure what will happen when I am deprived of it.